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[paperbutterflies]

Lan Sizhui

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I ask much.

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Hanguang-jun, how can you ever ask much of me, when you have given me everything?

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Will debt always live between us?

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[ A confused moment because, wait, isn't that how things are supposed to be? Owing the previous generation for your life, and everything in it?? Infinitely? ]

I do not think of it as debt, Hanguang-jun, only that whatever you may ask, direct, or tell me to do, I will do my best to do.

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Once, I stood equal to you in compliance.

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And now you are far dearer to me than any such time.

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Obedience is overly valued.

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But is it not useful while one is still learning, to avoid making mistakes that others will have to fix?

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Are you not yet past learning?

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Am I overly obedient?

... and also, are you past learning?

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You are better than I was.

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Hanguang-jun, how can that be? You were not that much older than I am now when you and senior Wei had to deal with the Xuanwu of slaughter, I have neither the skill nor the strength to match that.

Though I am doing my best to have more of both day by day! But I still could not compare.

[ Sizhui is fully aware how much better his dad is, thank you very much. ]

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You heed your heart more.

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Oh! That, I learned from you, too.

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Better.

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Thank you, Hanguang-jun.

[ Not sure why this, and given the ways that Hanguang-jun has followed his heart as long as Sizhui has memories of him, not entirely convinced, but he also doesn't want to argue... and also, Hanguang-jun spoke of himself at Sizhui's age, which is different from what Sizhui knows. ]

Now I just need to make sure my skills are good enough for where my heart wants me to go.

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With Wen Qionglin?

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[ Is this what

Dad, please. ]

To uphold what my sect, the sect that I belong to, has taught me and be righteous and protect those who cannot defend themselves. If he would join me sometimes, I would be glad for the company, but his path is his and mine is mine.

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Do not turn back on blood.



( But also... don't favour them more than... your adoptive father... )

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I will not.

But even the closest ties of blood have people separate, if only to meet again - and, Hanguang-jun, he is not here now, why are you thinking of him?

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His sister. Your aunt.

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It... when we first met, it was on the ship. There were memories missing because of the mirror. But if she will have it, I would like to learn about her, too. And from her.

[ ... also another trained healer shouldn't be a bad thing, right? ]

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She is a woman as steel.

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Does the fact that someone is strong mean that they have to bear all that they can bear?

[ ... this might apply towards Hanguang-jun himself, too. Among other things. ]

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How will strength keep, untried?